I will wait for you

 By Janette Ikz 

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..

So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him

Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF

So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?

I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,

Cause it was ME who let him in…

Claiming we were “just friends”..

It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!

I was gonna make him ‘The One’..

You know… I was tired of being alone,

And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,

Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..

A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!

Who was tired of the wait!

So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.

He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..

But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough

Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me

Arties so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me

So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,

That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back

Through my ignorance He sawed,

Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest

TO transplant Psalm 51:10

A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!

So now I fully understand,

Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,

How much I NEED to wait… for You.

See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..

Cause in the beginning was the Word

And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,

And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –

Which meant NOTHING.

He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to

Asking him to fast would be absurd!

So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…

But I know You.. ♥

You were already praying for me

Even never having met me

Let me assure you, I will wait for you.

I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you

To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention

And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.

You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?

His first name LUKE,

His last name WARM.

I, I won’t settle for false companionship

I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,

Attempting to find some closeness,

But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held

Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!

NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’

Passing winks & buying drinks,

I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫

Who flirts with the ideology of,

‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’

NO more.

I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you

He won’t even come close,

Our fingers won’t even interlock

We won’t even exchange breath

Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.

I will no longer get weighted down,

From so-called friends & family talks,

About the concern for my biological clock

When I serve the Author of Time.

Who is NOT subject to time,

But I’M subject to Him,

He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…

So if we could role play,

You would be Abraham & I would be Sara

Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer

I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,

Made up of your rib Adam!

And once we meet, like electrons

I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.

We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.

We were all created in His image,

But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.

If I were to explain what you looked like,

You would have to look like a star,

A son of the Son..

I would gain energy simply from the light on me.

I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis

I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥

And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,

Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,

Your faith will remind me of Abraham,

Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,

Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,

Your heart for God will remind me of David,

Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,

Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,

And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,

But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.

But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,

Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.

And you will know me, and you will find me,

Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.

Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,

Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.

I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.

But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth

Only if you should see fit…

I desire Your will above mine,

So even if you call me to a life of singleness,

My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.

YOU are the greatest love story ever told,

The greatest story ever known

You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness

And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business

Oh, I will always be Yours!

And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…

More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥

*beautiful!* :-)

Be more!

The Christians Pledge.

I will do more than belong; I will participate.

I will do more than care; I will help.

I will do more than believe; I will practice.

I will do more than be fair; I will be kind.

I will do more than forgive; I will work.

I will do more than earn; I will enrich.

I will do more than teach; I will inspire.

I will do more than give; I will serve.

I will do more than live; I will grow.

I will do more than be friendly; I will be a friend.

--author unknown.

Smile and be more... yes you can! :-)

Do It Anyway

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

One of my Fav poems by Mother Teresa! ...need I say more...do it anyway.

Life is short, maximize on every second that you live...live, learn, love, leave a legacy :-)

Life is a journey: Does God really Exist?

Life is a journey: Does God really Exist?: "My personal philosophy is that before you are able to totally believe in something, you need to doubt it first and theen evaluate and get to..."

Does God really Exist?

My personal philosophy is that before you are able to totally believe in something, you need to doubt it first and theen evaluate and get to the reason behind your notions and believes. So I had my own evaluations behind my belief of a God... then, I doubted. I doubted the existence of a God and evaluated everything I had heard from the possibility of evolution, Big bang theory and all the other theories. None of them quite gives complete answers to life’s big questions. There were too many question marks and too many unanswered questions...I was in this phase of disbelieve... until I had a personal encounter with God...

I am now a believer! And why am I so convinced?
I see Him working in my life and in the lives of those around me, He comes with an inner conviction that nothing else can explain. He speaks in all manner of ways. His love embrace is so real, to all who surrender to Him and fall into his open arms. He appeals to all my senses each time I take a stroll in the park or under the moonlight. The beautiful flowers by the road side and in the gardens, the amazing rays of sunshine that hit earth and bring warmth, the calm of the flowing stream, the sound of the birds chirping every morning, the sweet scent of roses and breathe of fresh air by the country side, the intrinsic and delightful taste of the different fruits and foods that He created, each with its own taste all shout of a genius touch. What great diversity that nature carries, and this all couldn’t be have been by chance.

What about the love I experience from my family and loved ones? How can you explain love without God? God is love! And we are all but sinners who live and know how to love because he first loved us.

WE believe in air yet we cannot see it,

We believe in electricity yet we cannot see it,

We believe in gravity and yet we cannot see it... we just see them in action.

Then why do we find it so hard to believe in a God we cannot see, though despite of His greatness and because of His love and mercy, He allows us to feel and experience him and know Him on a personal level!

As much as the world wanted to believe that the world is flat, it did not change the fact that it wasn’t. Same thing with God. We may want to assume that He doesn’t exist, but it doesn’t change the fact that He does.

God loves you! In doubt? Try him and he shall hold your hand and walk with you and reveal himself to you in every step of the way. But only if you want to. God is a gentleman, He will never force himself on anyone. This is why He gave us free will.

Jeremiah 29:13 

You will seek me and find me when you seek me wit all your heart.

xxx :-)

When I say I am a Christian- Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

This is one of my fav poems!! I find soo much truth in it. Its by grace people!!

Matthew West - My Own Little World

Sometimes we forget that its not just about us, no man is an Island, I believe that we are blessed to bless others. So go out there and do something for someone without expecting anything in return... no matter how small it is...it counts! :-))

Britt Nicole | Set the World on Fire

Just about to finish Campus and this is my theme song! for sure, I wana get out into the world and make a difference in what I do! Phil 4:13, I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me!... you too!!

The Love Story

Over the years, I have discovered that our relationship with God is somewhat similar to the relationship we have with someone we love, check this out...

You have been in school for a while and all this time one girl has taken you aback, she does not know you and if she does, she probably just heard about you because you are quite popular but she has never really had a personal encounter with you. You observe her for a while, you know her name, to you its love from the start!

(He loved us before we loved Him-1^st John 4:19, He knew you before you knew Him...before you were born even!- Jeremiah 1:5)

So you begin your pursuit, you talk to her, send her messages, even pass your regards through people. Your love letter to her is a whole book. You make known to her how much you love her.

(Jeremiah 31:3 The Lord appeared to us in the past saying; I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving kindness. ...n yup He shares His love message for us through the bible, friends and the church)

She on the other hand is scared of commitment, she doesn’t want to settle right now, she thinks life with you is boring and too defined. She has the fun side of life to explore first. So you wait in love.

(Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me. Rev 3:20)

Thing is, when she is in trouble or down, she comes running to you because she knows you will always be there for her,..Then fun times come and she sticks around a bit but eventually goes running off with the other guy. The one who made her cry in the first place!

After a while, she warms up to the idea of a relationship with you a bit...then more excuses come. -“I’m not good enough, I’m a mess! Let me change some things in my life, then I’ll come when I’m changed and ready”.

You say, you have always loved her just as she is, and you shall help her change.

(Isaiah 1:18 Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool... 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” )

So she gets into a relationship and you rejoice coz of how much you love her

(Luke 15:10 In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”)

N voila, the lifelong changing relationship begins...

The real purpose for living!

I got this e-mail of an interview by one of my favorite authors, Rick Warren, and it really inspired me, i hope it inspires you too.

This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren, 'Purpose Driven Life ' author and pastor of Saddleback Church in California .
In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:
People ask me, What is the purpose of life?
And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.
One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.
I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal. God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity..
We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn't going to make sense.
Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.
The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort; God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.
We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.
No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.
And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.
You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems:
If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, which is my problem, my issues, my pain.' But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.
Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.
It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.
So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.
First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit.. We made no major purchases.
Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.
Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation.
Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free.
We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity?
Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?
When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.
That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.
Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD..

BLESSINGS

Life's stages

Life has different stages and whatever the stage you are in, embrace it for it will only last for but a while. Embrace the bad times for it is in such times that we find ourselves and seek reason and purpose.Without the bad, we would not appreciate the good times and there wouldn’t be that balance of life or the moments that help build character and make us stronger. Embrace the good times for in such moments comes an abundance of joy that helps us realize the beauty of life.  Whatever stage you are in, learn from it, embrace it and then move ahead for there you shall find better days and more lessons to learn from.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. 

yay! and I just posted my 1st article!